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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 02:30

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

And i lived it daily.

Is there such a thing as "left wing fascism"? If not, what is an example of a political ideology that is often mistakenly labeled as "left wing fascism"?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Comes on , in middle age.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was seconnd youngest,

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

How do I get a white man for a serious relationship?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

It was going to be , some day.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Why did my ex move on so fast, we have only been broken up for 2 weeks?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I write beautiful poetry .

I think the readers, may guess!

Has a conversation with someone who holds opposing political views ever caused you to change your own beliefs?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

How do you feel about Donald Trump signing an executive order that says there are only two genders?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Is it possible to permanently quit pornography?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

When did bestiality first occur to you and how did it happen the first time? Was it a deliberate decision or it just happened and you allowed it?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

What started the whole idea of femboys? What is the whole point of a femboy? Did a boy or a man just randomly start dressing or acting feminine or something?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

My boyfriend wants to break up over too many petty arguments. To me, they are molehills because I truly love him & don't really think twice about them. If he loved me would he work through it?

When she asked me how she looked .

I was scared of men, in general

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Do leftists understand why young men are becoming more right-wing?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Which scene is considered the most difficult to watch in each of Quentin Tarantino's movies?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I said to her

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He knew the spot.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She loved him until the end.

She found it foreign!.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

This is soul school!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He resisted the act ,that day.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Why did i forgive my father ?

One cannot live in the past .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So, i spoilt her more .

But ive been too sick for many years..

Would this be the day?

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was very sick at this time too.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My family never makes their pension either.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But, we were locked up after school.

Im still living with it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My life is so biszare .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was 9 years of age.

Who then, do I blame.?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She was in good health!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I have no regrets .

So whats the point in blame.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She wouldn,t have been !

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I waited trembling.

I don,t even have a pension.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I will be 64.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She married twice! .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

What did i know ?

But it wasn’t much.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Put me off passion for life!!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

We were not on the streets..

We all went to grammer schools

Ive learnt so much.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

All the time i was locked up.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.